In this deeply moving and transformative memoir, the author sheds the veil of invisibility that often shrouds the journey of those living with Complex PTSD. The book, a revised edition of her 2012 publication, now bears her true identity, embracing the raw and real experiences that defined her life. This narrative is not just about the struggles of enduring relentless emotional, psychological and physical abuse. It is a poignant exploration of the silent questions that haunt many who have walked this path: the confusion over personal worth, the perplexity of staying in harmful relationships, and the deep-seated feelings of maternal inadequacy. The author courageously tackles the complexities of her past illuminating the often-misunderstood facets of Complex PTSD. \tBy revisiting haunting memories, analyzing past journals, reflecting on early photographs, and engaging in soul-searching conversations, she assembles a mosaic of experiences that paint a vivid picture of her battle and resilience. This memoir goes beyond a personal story; it’s a journey into the heart of trauma and survival, offering insights into the mindsets of of both the survivor and the abuser.