A compelling but sad journey from childhood in the UK through College at Oxford and then work as an Oil Trader in London, Geneva and Houston with brief spells in Bermuda and New York. After moving to the US in 1990 I was afflicted with devastating depression which created terrible strife with my two American wives ending in divorce, near financial ruin and almost suicide. Many unique stories fill the book about the oil trading world and a host of other interesting subjects. My relationship with my four children is highlighted as my main reason for living.