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All About Eva
Jayne Marlowe, author
My name is Evadne Cavell and I have an embarrassing secret.
I go to dark theaters and let anonymous men fondle me in the dark.
Why do I do this?
Because I’m the proverbial “good girl,” the youngest daughter of a prominent family.
Because I’m stuck teaching at a private Denver college with a new administration intent on taking the “liberal” out of liberal arts.
Because I need a way to vent my sexual frustration. The men I encounter don’t want big, beautiful Black women like me—not out in the open anyway.
Because I have to stay in control. I lost control three years ago—in public—and live in fear of being exposed.
At the same time, I want to be an object—touched, petted, wanted—desired—but by my rules.
In the theater I can look and I can touch, but no names, no eye contact, and no talking.
Then I meet Joshua Delaney, a graphic artist from Texas who has me breaking my rules faster than a tornado leveling a trailer park. Soon I’m doing things with him I’ve never done before.
The pressure is building inside me and I can’t go on like this forever.
Can I live my life without shame when society feels entitled to define me?