Forewarning! This book is filled with triggers, vulgar language, descriptive scenes of violence, sexual innuendo, in addition to actual sexual immorality depictions and most of all, HEALING! It’s nothing different than what women face every day but take a look into my lenses to see how I processed it all. This book is to bring awareness and then healing to not only survivors but also to those, like myself, who have made mistakes in the midst of trauma. To also help heal those of us who have also been the perpetrators and have manipulated the perceptions of others for personal gain. This memoir is for those who recognize that we are not perfect and in fact, we delve into a system in which we have no conscious understanding that all of the evils and expectations that we place on others, are the very same evils lurking within ourselves. Only with the reflection and identification of self-flaws will we begin to understand the necessary shifting and growing of self over time once we have found and identified within ourselves this space of what is what we call, Wicked.