This eulogistic memoir holds raw expression in the form of poetry, songs, eulogy, love letters from 1964 and awakened insights. Poems from many stages of my life are nested within the timeline of my Grandparent’s love story, Grandfather’s eulogy and the year following his tragic passing. The chapters: Searching for Starlight, Darkness of Night and Darknesses Retreat capture the emotional trinity that cycles through my life and had taken hold this past year. Through life’s ashes I have gained healing and insight in spite of this tragedy, my spirit is settling and warming up to peace. Just as the last chapter has its close, thoughts of Antioch… are being laid to rest. A loss for words… There is comfort in this; spirit speaking calls for time in translation. Words, seedlings of hope and healing.. regrowth.. marking new seasons. Thoughts within these pages speak at volumes only hearts can hear, forced words cannot possess their meaning or interpret their language. Energy coursing out of eyes reach, frequencies and vibrations with purpose to sift the sands of time, recalling life’s impurities to forfeit their stronghold; concede their waged war. 3 2 1..