The Existentialist Craves Nonbeing: Apathy, Dread, Self-Hatred, and Philosophical Pessimism is volume three of the series On Being, a psychological, self-referential, metaphysical, diary case history where the author J. Guzmán, as the protagonist Ana, psychoanalyzes herself throughout Time, uses astrology to facilitate the investigation, and documents the entire process. In volume three, Ana’s college soccer career finally falls apart as she hits an extreme low point regarding her mental health. She struggles to deal with her coach’s emotionally abusive behavior, and lives in a constant state of depression, despair, anxiety, and fear, about what to do with her life and what the purpose of it all is.